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18.3.08
and i thought things were back to normal... ok they are. i'm happy now. content and just hoping for the best.
i just sometimes hope i get that speck of chance to prove myself. so i got a call for an interview today. was super happy. thought i'd start preparing soon.. ah-ha. but my mum just came in on the pretext of helping me prepare but all she did was throw me into a mockup as if i was supposed to already go through the interview now. i mean yes, u can give it to me, but u should expect that i'm still thinking so i'll actually dribble out all my thought processes, but NO. u roll ur eyes at me, and kept correcting me before i was done.
AND THEN you say "ur supposed to write down these questions and prepare"... i'm like yea, i've taken note. and she's like, "ur answer was like blablablablablablabla..." gah. HELLO?! i want some peace tonight really. i wanted to do my research, i'm gonna do my planning. just not yet. do u get it?? not YET. so stop asking me questions and say that it's PRACTICE when ur obviously NOT thinking of it as practice. And then when i opened word file, and started typing in her questions while repeating them out loud, she thought i was ignoring her. whatthe. ok. i admit this is a bit of rambling now. but yes.
and uh. my dad comes in going "what happened here? u better listen ah.. get serious..." and some random crap when he was right behind me staring at my computer screen which was obviously the word file that read interview questions. nope, i dunno if he didn't notice or just ignored that fact. sheesh. so they both gang up and think i'm a childish horrible git who doesn't want to plan for her future again. yay
i mean i'll seriously appreciate her help if i've prepared then i can go ask her for advice bla bla. but now she KNOWS i've not done anything and still comes in and asks her questions and then give me that stupid sarcastic tone (which btw, i totally HATE. and is the root of most of my displeasure at her) whenever i say sth wrong or dunno what to say and cluck "u must be prepared u know..." once again, they think by saying it, i'll be able to achieve it by the next second. cos right after acknowleding, they will complain that i still haven't done it AGAIN. i really take my hat off them sometimes..
i dunno what to say. i'm a horrible daughter aren't i? but yea, can they pls make sense sometimes? i can't take it. arghh.
oh yes, i'm not really feeling up for celebrating my birthday at all this year. ): i've been emo-ing for so long that i feel tired being excessively happy on any given day. n really, i don't WANT to be too happy at all, it's too short-lived, i'd rather not have it at all, then i won't have to feel the disappointment to the same degree when it's gone. so well congrats to all u guys' pockets i guess. and besides, i feel really old these days. i'd rather not have a reminder that i'm older yet again. sighh. yesterday i wished rina happy bday and then i realised she has hit the big 2! and i'm like cringing so bad cos my turn soon. !$^#%$& A year is just such a short time la. blah.
-daph (10:02 pm) >>*
Daphne Tan; Singapore; Chinese; 17+; HCI; Buddhist; Aresian;
29031989; emotional; lazy; hungry; dreamer; loves: sleep; food;
music; dance; lights; webdsign; Korea!; dislikes: hypocrites;
gossips carried too far; stress; preachers;
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