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i ruined my life again.
16.9.07
I really did so want to start anew, give myself a chance. But maybe this is not meant to be, maybe I'm meant to wait…
Hmm, I feel crappy.. didn't know I'd be so affected by what he says and do. Well, at least I found out in the last few days. I almost cried thinking he didn't want to speak to me, and that was when I thought I would seriously make my move and decide. Feeling unsure, especially as I've observed the new situation. He should have at least 3 others waiting too.. oh well. So I thought I better make absolute sure of this before I leap in. instead of making things better though, it just got worse. Apparently I asked too much, but have I ever really gotten an answer? I dunno.. And now I think it'll be a million percent awkward and unhappy. ): I've really already decided on a yes, but now it's not my choice anymore, and I guess I'll just back away.
Was so upset/angry (more of which, I do not know, couldn't tell!) that my tears just kinda auto-trigger. Oh well, at least now my uphill plans of having to cut off ties with another someone won't have to be worked at anymore. Speaking of which, I confided in the someone, and he says I'm expecting too much.. he says guys need things spelt out for them sometimes… I really dunno.
I'll have to wait another day before I know what has become of us... I guess.. I hope I won't be too affected.
-daph (11:47 am) >>*
Daphne Tan; Singapore; Chinese; 17+; HCI; Buddhist; Aresian;
29031989; emotional; lazy; hungry; dreamer; loves: sleep; food;
music; dance; lights; webdsign; Korea!; dislikes: hypocrites;
gossips carried too far; stress; preachers;
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