Hello... please be patient while the site loads :D ~daph
cny..
17.2.07
i don't know if it's because as we humans grow older, we just tend to be more saddled with problems, and then we start to ignore everything that is peripheral in our lives, we then focus only on that one thing ahead of us. and never get to enjoy the real life we could have again.
i dunno.. everytime Chinese New Year rolled by, I'd be very excited and happy. haha. getting hongbaos.. and all the eating. i guess this year is just too... stressful? i dunno. i feel as though there are just too many things to deal with, perhaps. that i'd rather just stay home and sleep all day. I want to catch up with work. i want to catch up on my sleep. which i haven't been doing all of the past few months. it's only been a little more than a month, but i feel so.. tired like never before.
i'm not angry. or sad. i'm just.. tired.. in a very numb way. like, i know what's going to come. i know i have to face it. and that seems like the only bleak route i can take in life. it's like a helpless mentality.
Oh yea. and OUCH. i thought i could be happy when CNY came by. but now i feel so jaded. and i'm so sad. But i'll really try my best to become the happy person i used to be. and the carefree person i try very hard to be. Long is right, one should always be happy to not worry the people around u. ^^
Anyway, today's reunion dinner was fine.. but i dunno if it's due to the last two steamboat dinners i had for the past 2 weeks.. but today's steamboat fell short of expectation..
I love steamboat soooooooooo much. u can ask my family. they got dragged by me to eat steamboat for many weeks for some time last year. haha. today's soup was quite bland though. and very little content.. haha. and i tried to recreate the sesame mix that long did the last time. and it turned out too oily. haha. but my mum liked it. hehe.
in other news, my dad wants me to stop doing my shop after cny. but the problem is i've lots of new stuff yet to be made/photographed/uploaded. and i doubt i have the time in any of these days. guess i've to do it secretly and in moderation so that my shop will not be so cold and lonely.. Anyway, thanks all who've supported my shop. u are great!! lots of love to u..
hmm, have a happy trip: yunn and cass.. both have gone overseas and enjoying themselves i hope. (:
also, congrats to jiawei and xiaomei for returning home for cny. and much love to those who are unable to return home for cny..
cny's a pretty tiring affair, isn't it? mine always ends up like this:
1st day- visit my dad's family.. ALL DAY. (too many uncles and aunties) and then come home and get visited by my mum's sis..
2nd day- go to malaysia to visit jiu4 gong1 and yi2 po2.. (all day. counting all the traffic jam possibilities)
3rd day- visit godparents... comehome to receive relatives..
4th day- SCHOOL! AHHHHHH. Where's my sleep?
heh. so u know where to find me i guess. lol.
i want to wish everyone a happy cny.. and a restful one too. ^^ uh. but it feels wrong wishing it in english. but my lousy comp doesn't allow me to type in chinese. sniffs.
i'm glad to have caught up with u zing.. glad to know ur still the happy zing i know ^^ And uh.. rmb we met lester? he was confused when he saw u with me. cos he thought it might not be me since i'm in HC but u were in RJC uniform.. haha. um. happy valentine's and CNY to all!
Oh. they just finished the countdown. so happy CNY!! hehe.
-daph (11:32 pm) >>*
Daphne Tan; Singapore; Chinese; 17+; HCI; Buddhist; Aresian;
29031989; emotional; lazy; hungry; dreamer; loves: sleep; food;
music; dance; lights; webdsign; Korea!; dislikes: hypocrites;
gossips carried too far; stress; preachers;
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