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arrrhhhh
18.2.07
hi all. i've decided that after my final update of goods. i really may not want to actively do my jewellery anymore.
i have been doing late delivery because i haven't had the time to rush out postage deadlines. and i feel terrible when my customers get their goods late. and i realise that my stuff can be quite fragile. considering my mum's clip-on earrings seem to keep tangling/dropping off/ whatever else crap. and i get so annoyed. at myself mostly. but also at why ppl are so.. violent. geez. nothing happens when i use them.. i dunno why.
ANYWAY. i just got back at 9+ from a full day of visiting.. very very tiring. and i feel bloated. and very. junked. i decided to come online to check my blog and mail and whatnots. though i kind of realised... that i shouldn't have. then i can escape from the fact that i've to do this beeping announcement on wed. i wrote a script. it was edited. sent to me. commented on. and i realise. the big problem is i've no time to rehearse before wed! ARGH. irritating.. CNY is like the worst holiday ever. always so busy and tiring. why can't ppl just give me a break?? I've already been wondering just HOW we're going to ever do the announcement by this wed. there's no choice. but i still don't see how it's going to work out.GAH. why the short notice huh?!? (ok. please do not be offended. its no personal attack. i'm just venting my frustrations)
it used to be i-bu-shuang-pa-days... but now it's.. shut-up-don't-talk-abt-pa-or-i'll-explode-extended-period-of-times. there's just too many things abt it that i cannot agree with/cannot live with/cannot even defend my own feelings for. It's my fault. it's also the CCA.. but i guess we all just live with out life. and things work out eventually. (or they don't, but they just blow over and it's THE END, so no one cares anymore)
ah well. anyway, in a happier note. i saw a lot of um. cute kids today. mostly my nephews/nieces.. xiangling forgot me again! to think i played with her all afternoon the last time she visited my house.. she was such a little tyke, full of energy... climbing up and down, running around.. have to admit i'm old.. SIGH. and now.. she forgets me. sniff. she's supposed to look a lot like me when i was young.. haha. lalala.
hm.. and then on another more depressing note. due to my large family.. my older cousins.. tend to be nearer to my parents in terms of age and lifestyle. so it's always been as if my bro and i were of a younger generation compared to them. they always treat us as kids. one of them can't even name me today. i felt so... insulted. like i was so puny. HELLO? i even remember ur name. one of them also ignored me totally when she went shaking hands with all the adults. presumably, i'm just a baby. YEA whatever. i don't ask for much. not that we MUST be on equal levels or whatever. but.. at least show me some kind of respect as a young adult. (yes, i'm already one!) Sigh.. i've always been envious of other families with close cousins.. (they have closer age gap...)
Whereas for me... i have nephews and nieces who are older than me.. and one just got married. so in effect, if he had any kids soon. i'll become a grand auntie of some kid.. and my parents are greatgrandauntie/uncle. how interesting. Oh well. i hope that in future, my kids' family will not be half as complicated and distant..
sigh. i sound like a total sad case.
but in any case.. i can't wait for my to grow a little older. and the lil cute kids to grow older. and um. i can then hang out more with them. and be the young cool aunt! heh heh. ^^
p.s.. i'm sorry to those ppl i'm ignoring. cos i DON't want to be reminded of things i do not want to discuss now. also.. i realised that the girl who was upset over late postage did indeed receive her necklace on time.. so she's now very happy.. um. i feel happy too. at least i'm not saddled with guilt now.. (:
-daph (10:08 pm) >>*
Daphne Tan; Singapore; Chinese; 17+; HCI; Buddhist; Aresian;
29031989; emotional; lazy; hungry; dreamer; loves: sleep; food;
music; dance; lights; webdsign; Korea!; dislikes: hypocrites;
gossips carried too far; stress; preachers;
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